Today is 'the' day. Cannot stand it. The tension was so super high the whole day. School was damn slack lah. i did not pay attention to every single lesson. because my mind couldn't concentrate. it was drifting. i had this feeling that i mite not be able to make it. and i kept thinking about it.

miss low's prayer was so sweet. i cried after that. the hugging part was even more sad. i cried even more. cried cried cried. it seemed as though it was going to be the last time we would see each other.

after school, queen, cheryl, avril and i went to pp to have lunch. i didn't eat much. couldn't. the food did not look that good. and i felt like puking. damn gross. after that, went back to school. continued hugging. and hugging. ah..and yah. went to the board to see how kc did. wa lao. i got quite scared lah when i saw that there weren't any 100% passes for some of the subjects. i started to panic. lol. took out my calculator and started counting how many ppl failed. damn dumb lah.

went to the hall. sat there. start pressing my little piggy. it died. i think. anyway...i duno why. but everyone started calling me. heard from alyson that everyone in tp did very well. wow. i scared lah. i was so scared that i would be the only who cannot make it to cjc. heart sank. haix. after that the new principal went through like how well we did and all that. i started crying when i saw the first slide. and as she moved on to the second slide...i cried even more lah. couldn't stop crying lah. i was like BAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i kept telling my friends that i cannot get below 20 and i cannot get into cjc. then i cried and cried. ahhaa. damn dumb. i feel so paiseh now. anyway, my friend kept holding on to my hand. they donated tissue. they gave hugs. haix. my junior guides came down to support. wa lao. cheryl ann did very well. of course wad. cheryl ann. who else? lol

i cried infront of my junior guides. so paiseh. they thought i did very badly. but actual fact is that i haven't even get back my results yet. i cried as ...my turn was nearing. i stop for awhile. then cried again. wa lao. siao lah me. haha. so cry baby. bleh. then i went to sit down infront of my form teacher lah. she told me to relax. and then she told me my L1R5. omg. i told u when i heard that i got 15, i screamed lah. i jumped out of my seat. and went to my friends and started jumping and screaming. and jumping and screaming. couldn't stop. hahaa. then. i forgot to sign the paper. lol. super happy lah. 15 = i can go to cjc. YEH! my dream! lol. but sigh.i am totally disappointed with my combine humans. from A2 to C6. thanks man. but thank goodness i did not fail anything (: phew

haha.. so now norman dun have to do the 100 grandstands for me. but...i have to run round the track 8 times because of some bet with my friend. (amanda tay...wa lao) haix. ahhaa.

anyway...got quite alot of people i want to thank!

Mummy + Daddy + Granny + Shuyi + Bro + Aunties + Cousins = Thanks for all the support. I love u all. Sorry for all the worry! I made my mum so worried that she wanted to took leave. lol. haha. she wanted to rush down to kc when she heard me crying. lol. thanks for all the comfort and all! love u all alot!

Mrs Teo= Thanks alot. i trust u. seriously. (: Thanks for all the help for my english and my literature. u made a difference to these 2 subjects :) guiding will always rock forever!

Mdm Gammar= Thanks for being such a good form teacher. yah.haha. eating in the hall when the principal was announcing the results :) hahaha. so cute! i will miss u! lit and eng. hahah

Mrs Lim = OMG! THanks ALOT! without u, my maths would be nothing. LOVE U! oMG...u made my LOVE MATHS! OMG. MATHS ROCKS. OMG. THANKS ALOT. thanks for all your time. u stayed back for us when we needed ur help. u printed alot of free ws for us. u encouraged us. u gave me hope. u are great.

Mr Ng = without ur tution, i think i wld fail my amaths. even though u teach very slowly, haha. u are a very good maths tution teacher. thanks alot! i love maths! (: Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Mrs Koh = I MIss u LAh! I can't believe i pASSED MY SCIENCE! ahhhhhhhhhh U ROCK! U told us that we will do better for combine sc than bio and OMG u are RIGHT!

Mrs Boey= Thanks. i passed my bio. yeh! yeh yeh!

Miss fairozah & Mrs Siva = Thanks. Even though i m sad with my combine humans reuslts. but i will never forget those wonderful lessons! thanks alot. i still love combine humans! Yeh! maybe not ss but GEOG! ELECTIVE GEOG ROCKS!

Miss Wong = thanks. 12th nite.. haha. grass is singing. ARGH MARY TURNER! OMG.

Deborah= thanks alot lao gong! i love u! u gave me the greatest support. u stood by my side. u cheered me on. I LOVE U! thanks. pls don't bump me on saturday!!!! ahhhhhhhhhh

Guides= Thanks for standing and waiting with me for the results. i feel so paiseh to cry infront of u all. i cried during the farewell party and now i cry cry cry. haha. i gave u all a shock. haha.. like i m so cry baby. sorry lah.. a very cry baby CL. LOl

Amanda, ziqueen, liesl, venisar, ritwika = i think i gave u all a shock when i started crying like siao. sorry ah. made u guys cry also. sorry sorry. but thanks for all the encouragement. :)

t14= thanks for staying together. till the last min. we rock. love u guys. now i feel that u guys are so impt. i was so scared that i cannot stay with u all. thank goodness. phew.

norman and dom=ahaha. thanks alot. duno wad to say to u guys! but thanks! :)

miss low= thanks for praying with us! :)

ok ok..sorry if i forget to thank u. super happy now. hahah

ok so congrats to all those who did very well! ESP t14! i think all of us can remain in CJC! Yeh! Yeh we rock! Cya guys in sch tomorrow! :)

i love my friends. i love u guys! (:

i think worrying abt my o level results is not the first thing in my mind now. the first thing is my mind is not being able to be together with u all. :( sigh.

my friends are so sweet. some are praying. some are giving non-stop encouragements. some giving love. everyone. i love u all. thanks for everything. i duno how i can repay back the love that u all give. just love u all more? yeh...(: i hope i can do well too. sigh. but thats scary lah. ok. thanks again and again for ur encouragements! LOVE MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY MORE THAN ANYTHING!

ahaha. weiqi! my lesbian partner and energy! yeh..hahaha. love u forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

haha aly jie jie! i always take pic with her one lahx.. take take take take non-stop. lol. wa lao.. we got very nice teeth. LOL> WTH 

my jie jie and me!!! ah. got so many jie jiex! haha. jie luv u! aha. i taller than u leh. lol. must take more pics ok? i only got one with u! :( 

i cry at the slightest things.

when i was in primary school, i cried the day before my exams.
when my friend shouted at me, i cried.
when i went for the farewell party for guides, i cried. i cried. nv stop leh. lol.

why i keep crying? bleh. i m cry baby lah. cry cry cry. day night cry. lol. yeh so cry baby right. lol. doesn't sound like me leh. Hahah.

guess wad? i m burning the results.

i give up already. aiyah. i worry abt my results. but whats there to worry? i msged mrs lim the other day and i told her that i was very scared.

hey reply came back as '' There is nothing we can do already. All we can do is to think positively.''

actually it is quite true. i really did my best for my o levels already lah. i studied. ah but not as hard as prelims. haiyah. wad done is done. we can never turn back time. no use if i regret. i shouldn't. i should just think positive. and pray. pray that i can get below 20 and go cjc. thats all i hope. so pray. hm. i will pray for my friends too. i hope all of them do well too. so that we can celebrate together. i hope i won't cry on monday. but i think i will. haix. the feeling of waiting for the results is terrible. i suddenly feel like mary turner. (the main character in the 'grass is singing'. a horrible literature text.) mary turner had this feeling. she knew she was going to die. and for me. i noe i am going to do badly. but as is said. wad done is done. if i do badly, i still have to live on. i hate it. today is saturday. 3/4 of the day is gone already. tomorrow is sunday. then on monday. last day in sch. i don't know how lah. i am lost. seriously lost.

i went to read everyone's blog. (t14's latest entry is the best) most of them are quite scared. most hoping to go to cjc. yeh. ):
i don't wana see miss gammar giving me that 'look' on monday. the 'look'= u did not do well.
i have seen it many times in my sec 3 and sec 4 years. i can still remember how badly i did when i was in sec 3. second last in class. and i was a vice chairperson. girl guides company leader. pressure. sec 4. improved. thankgoodness. i miss my secondary school. the teachers. the friends.

mrs koh lai fong. i miss u alot!! i miss all your funny chem and phy lessons. when u went arnd and took all our things when we were not listening during your lesson. you wld put it on the teachers table. but the girl sitting infront of the teachers table would always take 'the things' back while u continued teaching. haha. i did that a few times. ah. i m sorry. lol. and thanks for your bionic eyes.

mrs joan lim. i miss your amaths + emaths lessons in the av. i enjoyed them. u made me love maths. i did not give up. mrs sng wanted me to give up at the end of sec 3. but i did not. wa lao. HENG AH. hahaa. amaths was terrible in sec 3. i only scored a one digit for mid year in sec 3. i didn't noe WTH i was doing. but crap. i still made it. thanks to my tution teacher too.

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actually i shld thank all the pple. who helped me. in one way or other. even if i do badly. ok these are the pple i m going to thank: mum & dad. sis & bro. grandma. maid. aunt. mrs lim. miss gammar. mrs koh. mrs siva. mdm toh. mrs boey. miss fairozah. miss wong. mrs teo. mrs chua. mrs goh. mr jega. mr karib. mrs sng. mr lim. mr ng. jacquelyn. vanessa. amanda. cheryl. cheryl ann. pamela. hc. venisar. jialing. andrea. liesl. yanbin. ziqueen. deborah. my dot family. sec 4.4. sec 3.5. sec 2.2. sec 1.2. girl guides. yeh and the rest of the world.
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love the pple in cjc. alyson. libing. alycia. jean. dorothy. siyi. pamela. dawn. weiqi. mcRon. jey. denise. liying. karen. kim. sam.yah. and the rest of 14 :) ziqueen. avril. grace. tiff. sherlyn. wan ning. council ppl. interact ppl. chingay ppl. band ushers. miss lee. miss lim. mr ah beng.
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it is such a long way. from sec 1..that kiddy look of me. sec 2...the guide-dy me. sec 3..the do badly in studies me. sec 4..the study hard me. haix.

i can still remember that at the end of sec 3, i did badly. i was promoted to sec 4 on conditional pass. i will never forget that. it is so scary. i can just retain anytime. ): wa. now. i am waiting for my o level results. time flies u noe. u noe. u noe. u noe?

sux lah. hate the time now.

wa we cool not? 

after the movie. look at our faces. so pale. lolx. 

miss low...with all of us! 

miss lee rocks lah. 

gp pic (seoul garden) 

me and dorothy!!! 

BOO! tats US! 

me and queen 

dawn and meeeeee 

I am writing an entry now and i m being timed. wa lao. haha. damn lame lah. lol.

anyway...i went out today to watch 'hide and seek'. haha. i was sitting beside aly in the cinema. shit lah. we went in late and made so much noise that i could hear ppl 'eheming'. lolx. wth rite? the show was not the scary. but the sound effect was lah. wanted to scream.

reasons why i didn't scream was coz':
1) no one else were screaming
2) scared i scream no sound come out
3) didn't want to be the scarycat

lol. but i kept jumping out of my seat lah. haha. BOOM. then i jump. aly so 'kua zhang'. she said i jump until the whole row of seats moved! wa lao. she also scarycat lah. kept holding on to my hand. haha. her hands were so cold. lol. but i was freaking out during the show. i kept biting my fingers. lolx. but aly and i kept laughing...HAHAHA. i was like 'i am going to scream, i am going to scream...' then HAHAHAHA. lolx. i learnt a lesson from the show. DUN EVER BE A PSYCHOLOGIST.

after the show, we sat around and chat for some time. yah..chat. and crap. and took pics. lol. we went to taka to get presents for ourselves. lol. cool rite? in the end we bought lucky charms! Yeh! so cool! yeh the piggies unite! (:

bleh. ok back to serious talk. so far, i noe that mostly all the 14ians are not going to take the same combi if they are going to stay in cjc. so wads the use of......? nvm. i wouldn't mind studying abit harder just to stay in the same class. haix. now...i have to wait 3 more days for my results.

here is what i plan to do:

if i get 20 points and below: STRAIGHT AWAY APPLY FOR CJC
if i get 20 points and above: do not return back to cjc for the remaining day, maybe go poly and do tourism, business admin or nursing. or go to MI.
if i get worse than that: GO TO SIMEI ITE. and maybe do nursing.

haix. duno wad to do. on that day this is what will happen:

if i get below 20 points: u will see me jumping, hugging, running, screaming, cheering.
if i get above 20 points: u will see me disappear for no reason, crying

so..these are my reactions lah. be prepared for it. ok? and norman promised me that if i do not get into cjc, he will do for me 100 grandstands. but there is no day limit. he can take forever to do it. anyone else wana have a deal too? lol. ok lah thats abt it for today. blehx. mon-THE DAY, last day in cjc, photo-taking day, crying day, nervous day, goodbye day.

dun ever pass me anymore envelopes. i hate them. esp if they are white in colour. because they just sux.

anyway. i duno why i m making so many bets with people. like e.g if i stay in cjc, i will do something and if i don't...the other person has to do something. blehx. bets? are they worth making. yeh guess so. staying in cjc isn't that easy after all. maybe easy for some people lah. but blehx. but if i stay, i have to make more choices. should i continue with geog which i dread studying? econs which i am blur at sometimes? maths which i think i can do but i am still trying? yeh man..funny. so far, all the smart people i know got the stupid brown envelope. brown sux too. anyway. yah stop talking about envelopes.

haix. heard that results coming out on 28th. ok. so nvm. stop talking about results. ok. so i think i should stop talking already. coz i duno what else to talk besides these. crap. ok. must take class picture ok? 1t14 way to go! (:

The thought of getting back my O level results really send shivers down my spine. Just a few months ago before taking my Os, i remembered my teachers who kept reminding us that we better study hard. Otherwise, when we get back our O level results, we would cry. My social studies teacher even said that if we do badly and cry, she would laugh at us. My days spent in cjc for the past one month was great. Being in a good class, having good friends, made bonds, all these are hard to be torn apart. It is totally difficult. Most people only have the difficulty of choosing between cjc or other better jcs. But for me, it is a totally different way round.

My prelim score was really a miracle for me. How can i possibly score back the same 20 score that i really want? My usual L1R5 would be 30 something. ): Nothing proud to be about. Many people keep saying that you would do even better for Os than ur prelim results. But i do not believe that. I felt that Os was harder than my school's prelim paper. what only right? How sad. I really do not want to leave. I made very good friends. Some like, alyson jie jie, libing jie jie, dawn, pam, alycia, dorothy, jean,weiqi, and the list goes on... ... I have never felt so traumatised by my results. So scared. So worried. Os. Nothing that Big rite? But it depends. It concerns whether i will stay in cj or not. I m really really scared. Seriously. This is a very serious entry lah. I am not crapping lah. I may 'crap' alot sometimes and joke around, but sometimes when it is serious, u just have to be.

Results would be out in like er...9 days. 9 days left to my life in cjc. My dream jc. Many people want to go to better jcs but my choices are limited. get it? econs. yeh. i love my friends lah. it is so hard for me to part with them. tell u what, i think i would cry if i do very badly. really. seriously. i would. i would breakdown to such an extreme that i might go mad. I am just hoping for a 20 only. 20. serious. is it that hard? i don't know.

Lets reflect back to the O level exam days...

Amaths: was easier than i expected. But nv think that u will do well because u wld end up the other way round.
Emaths: I was hallucinating during the paper. I do not know why. Maybe it was below what i expected.
English: I crap it all the way. Mrs Teo (my gg teacher) expects me to get like A1 or A2. Worse a B3. But i think i m letting her down. I think i would get a B4 or C5.
Chinese: I got b3 Lah. Means 3 points gone. Sigh. I wanted an A. But my chinese oral was crap. I only got a P.
Biology: It sucked. I hate it. I gonna fail.
Chem/phy: I didn't know what the ___ i was doing. Just crapping? But mcq was alright because i did alot of tys.
Lit: I hope my 12th nite won't let me down. But i think it would. I wrote crap on the 'love' topic. :'( Lit. My hope. sheesh. gone down the long kang. mary turner. i studied about you for nothing. if i fail lit, i would burn the books.
Geog/ss: My SS was SHIT. I m going to do badly for ss this time. My SBQ was wad? I wrote so damn rubbish lah. Geog was ok. at least i got one 'ok'.

What other subs? i don't think i can remember anything else. Come to think of it, secondary school work was damn easy lah. Its always like that. Shit.

I am confirm going to laosai before i get back my results. If i do not msg u after getting my results, means i did badly. ok? geddit? Ah...dun share ur gd news to me. I would be too upset by then. This is some preparation for my friends. I don't want you to see my cry. Anyway...i should stop blabbing about my Os results. I should just cherish the last few days of my life in cjc. cjc. cjc. i love cjc.

I love my class lah. I made a poem for them. With contribution from alot of people. ppl like aly, doro, pam, dawn. wahah. something to laugh about for the time being. Damn tired. Reached home only about 9pm. had council at PA. I was pespiring like mad lah. My whole back was wet and so wet that..i got so 'paiseh' to walk around. ahaa.

ok, now i should think about my classmates. why i love them so much.

firstly, aly. the person i m closest to. even though i always say 'shit u' to her. she is damn nice to me. but sometimes she like to irritate me. bleh. itx ok. i don't mind. she is super tall. Gives me the feeling that i m being protected. I feel like i got a security guard beside me. But she is so sweet lah. (: Aly..u are great. always asking me to go for interact. sorry that i always pang sei u and alycia. i feel damn bad actually. but i m frickle. what to do?

next, libing jie jie. my first sister in the cjc. didn't made any this yr. she's first. yeh. a very sisterly person. i feel like wa...some xiao mei mei. yeh and there's like a jie jie. she makes me laugh. laugh. laugh. her jokes are funny. she looks damn sweet. sometimes she looks fierce. but she is tired. coz she is training for this and that. a very fit person. total opp. of me. i love her. nv wan leave cj. coz...theres ppl like her.

next next, dorothy. my sitting partner. on my left is dot. on my right is karen the so called 'parrot'. i dono why. but just parrot. anyway, dorothy. she is so nice. she is willing to stay back and 'pei' me. she is kind hearted. she lends a hand. (so brownish). she is my brownie partner. we eat brownies together. lol. then after we eat. we check each others teeth. lolx. damn dumb lah. but just check. coz when u eat the freaking small $1.70 brownie, the choc will get stuck in ur teeth. and when u walk arnd, damn 'paiseh'. yah thanks dot.

next next next. oh alycia. she is older than me. but i treat her like my xiao mei mei. i keep thinking that she is younger than me. younger than me. younger than me. just because she is smaller than me. smaller than me. smaller than me. i promised her that if she gets into tandf, i will run with her. lol. quite a stupid promise. lol. she daydreams alot in class. and omg. i love to sit beside her during lectures. because she will doodle on my paper and i will doodle back. we play tic tac toe. then we also compete in copying down notes. then we talk lah. hahaa.

next person is pam. wa. the super most enthu person in council. we are only council interns. halo? council interns. yeh. we are that only. wa. don't know why u do so many things? but she is a quite responsible htc. always chasing us out of the class when the bell rings for us to go down to the quadrangle. (or wadever u spell that). haha. she talks to me. shares with me her secrets. we can talk to each other and know abt each other secrets. a gd friend to communicate with.

dawnie! my mei or jie. i duno. a very darling friend. so fair. i admire her skin. i feel like she is the snow white of the class. her cheeks are rosy all the time. guess it is because of her diet. dawn is nice. everyone is nice. lol. dawn is a super gd friend. she is also super kuai. common thing between both of us is that....we were from BROWNIES. but crap. not the eating kind. but the cca in primary school. the one which the small kids have to run around the toadstool and sing song. and besides that we were from the same gp. GNOMES! 'here u see the laughing gnomes, helping mothers in our home!' so nice. so lovely. i always stick to her one. she's a gd friend.

WEIQI! my energy baby! every time i see her in sch, i will suddenly feel like as though my energy level increased from 0 to 100. PE time also. i see her, i run. i see her, i jump. she is damn nice. always going to town with her. i know whats her taste like. she likes all the very classy type of things. she has this thing against _____(fill in the blanks). i don't know why. but just against. haha. she has her hair tied up now. she looks so pretty. ah weiqi! she likes to pon also. and she always end up doing dc. and she says that she rather do dc than go home. weiqi has a kind heart. she does visitation. and i admire her kind of attitude to help others. so helpful..but dun really look like the president of drama club in anderson sec 2004. lol. joking.

lastly, jean! mrioaw! lolx. her cat call is super loud, clear and WA powerfuL! Like some gun powder going off. i think can be louder than mcron's voice. lolx. she is super hardworking. and OMG. and damn responsible rep for GP. Miss low says this. like print this for the whole class. and the next thing u see, the paper flying towards u. WOW. omg. and Gd service. i cannot believe it. it is like 'zoom' 'zoom' 'zoom'. the first time i met her, i thought she was like a super woman or wad. she can walk from like one end to the other end of the sch in like less than a min? u see her infront of u, and suddenly...gone. gone like the wind. haha. she has this thing for fish and chips. mrioaw. lolx. fishy..chipsy..lolx. yum. $2. hahaa but abit the gerak rite? eat that everyday. haha. but she has changed her menu already. tats gd jean!

kk..so sorry if i nv write the rest of the class. aly is 'chui-ing' me to type faster. coz her eyes closing and she scared she wld sleep infront of the comptuer. sorry jie! ok..i m done. going to sleep soon. tata. cya all tomorrow! hope we won't be playing netball against that 'screaming' girl again! ah.....

Yesterday was quite fun lahx.

I had guides in the morning. went back to school to test the recruits on their kims game. a new girl joined guides. actually, she was forced to. blehx. now there's like 10 new girls in guides. ah better than nothing. hm. after guides, i had to rush to orchard mrt for council. council cip. yah.

we had to pack the goodie bags for chingay. lol. damn fun. but tiring lah. my back is aching ah! alamak. but nvm. we started at 12pm! oh yah, on our way there, we were stopped by these gmss girls to buy some bands. the band represents like to stay virgin till u get married or something like tat. omg. we were on the news lah. damn ps. haha. anyway, the packing of goodies was quite fun. we were abit mad here and there. playing around and laughing. lolx. made new friends. oh yah, and saw queen's sister there. wa. the world is so small. i didn't even noe how she looked like lah. but just heard her name...then 'ay, sounds familiar'. haha. most of the ppl left like at 3pm. but then the J1 interns super enthu lah. we stayed till abt 5pm to make sure that everything was cleared. fun. tiring. ah. both.

after that, dawn and i went to far east to meet weiqi and denise who left earlier. we bought the v day gifts for the class, then talk, eat, walk. yah. then went to popular. then home. bleh. so tired.

hahah. alyson dun angry lah. next time i see that band again then i buy for u ok? chill. 881 881!

Today...is a 'duno how to describe' day. haha. i should say. abit the weird day also. but can be considered quite funny lah. school started with .....waiting at the busstop for avril and ziqueen. lol. blehx. everyday. i hate it when i have to wait alone on tues and thurs when avril goes for her ODAC morning run. bleh. damn lonely lah. sit there alone and watch the buses pass by. 153, 151, 105, 154, 966, 985, 185...and so on.

after that, we had maths. maths was just maths lah. she wanted to give us a test, but we were complaining. it ended up as an exercise. how lame. econs was the slackest lah. we laughed when McRon opened his mouth. and stoned...for the rest. haha. but weiqi's presentation was cool...i only understood hers! Go weiqi go go go! haha. Pam's gp not bad lahx. :) Jia you.

Break was break lah. (wa lao lame leh. wad the --- am i typing?) kk. ate. went back to class. libing's best friend (the clock) committed suicide when they put it somewhere high on the wall. so sad. i think it did not die. but it got injured lah. the front part came out. crap. it is easier to see now. don't have to look through the plastic. lol. made in China wad. oops. sorry ah. no offence.

hm..after break was GP. omg. miss low was so fierce to kim and siyi lah. i got a shock of my life. haha. she kept asking them to ans. aiyo. :X haha..the only funny part of GP was...that the child from a divorced family would have phobia with cars. because...he would have to travel from one place to another and then...all the car rides would give him phobia. damn lame lah. it was shunfa's idea. oh yah. his bday today. but didn't really do anything. just sang a song and gave a card. for siyi's one we gave her a $1.70 brownie. but for shunfa...a $0 song. aha. lala.

after GP was geog. went to the geog special rm for the first time in cj. halo. i m in there for like one month already. but nv step in there b4. haa. i sat under the aircon. shiok ah. so COOLING. lolx. alyson, alycia, dawn, dorothy and i did the geog questions together. i was the only one who brought the paper lah. haha. guess wads DOM? alycia created a new meaning for it. It is 'death of McRon'. abit mean lah. but haha. haha.

Econs lecture was BORING.....did the test questions. ahah. that ah beng teacher went thru some of the questions. haha. weiqi and i were like talking abt how cute he was. but he so ah beng. AH BENG ah LIAN. SLY!!!! ahh haha. alycia was bored. ah. didn't play the BINGO game. nobody cared to start. jie jie...hahaa.

WEnt for lunch with alyson, weiqi, jean, siyi, dawn and dorothy. weiqi and i tried some 'mee' from the noodle king. ah...quite nice. but i think they added alot of msg. so msgish. but nice lah. haha. after that i went for interact lah. with alyson and sherlyn. haha. we go there play one loh. play play. sew sew. talk talk. fun fun. lol. talked alot. made new friend. yeh. Cheng jie? Aly said her name not spelt like tat. aiyah.....

left at 4.30pm with aly and the rest. i didn't want to stay alone. so loner. haha. no other J1s there lah. if i stay. i would be talking to myself. went to the grandstand. omg. the wind there is FAB. best lah. i love the wind there. is it for some season only? or for the whole yr? cool man. watched aly play volley. haix. stood at the grand stand for 15mins. damn dumb lah. but got nothing better to do. i left at abt 5pm..haha had to run pass the st vincent de pauls rm where they were having interact. so scared they see me..lolx. haha..

when i went home...slept until 8pm. all my intestines CRUSHED. coz i slept on the table. sheesh. couldn't take my dinner. too full. i think i ate alot of air. wa lame. anyway........yah..now i m here...supposed to be doing my geog hw but blogging. ah sheesh. tomorrow i got GUIDES and CHINGAY. wa so busy. no time to study chinese and maths test. fail lah. and get last in class again. sheesh..kk better stop here.

Oh yah..who free on v day? aly and i are planning some stuff after sch for those who don't have dates. haha. kk..tell us kk? 881 881!

u can see how bored i m lah. this is my second entry for the day. scroll down for the first. why is everyone talking about v day? wads so wow about it? haha. maybe not for me because i m alone. haha. well, itx fine wad. blehx. :( can u imagine studying for chinese test on v day? wa lao.

v day. i donating blood. haha. dotx. ahhhhh. v day no one to go out with. hm...who else like me? wana go out together then? maybe we can celebrate together then. blehx. ahaha.

was thinking of the beach...... haha






AHhhhhh PIMPLES!

I just woke up. from a very long sleep. I slept at 1pm and itx like 5 something now. i can't believe that i m such a pig. i eat and sleep, eat and sleep. wa. today not many ppl visiting me. my cousin and his girlfriend came at 1 plus, but i was too tired to entertain them. i slept on my table at first, but then...sort of sleep-walk onto my second storey bed (crap lah it is a double deck). luckily i didn't fall onto the floor lah. my leg was numb. -_-"crap.

now. i m doing nothing. stoning. my cousins coming over later. not 1 but 2. the small kids. ah. back to kiddy land. blehx. they are confirm going to mess up my room, touch my papers, draw on my papers, take my markers....yeh. nvm, let them do it. :X

can't wait to see them....?? don't know lah. eyes half closed. don't even noe wad i typing. just blehing everything. kk lahx. happy 2nd day new year. hex. tomorrow must go to school and i sort of dread it.

Sian Lahx. I am so tired. This morning, i woke up only at 9am. was so freaking tired lah. yah ate. then changed into my new clothes and stoned. yah. did abit of hw. then threw it aside. damn boring lah. my relatives only arrived at about 1pm. then at 2.30pm i went to my ah ma's house. yehx. ate sushi. haha. then watched tv. then ate again. then played with my cousins. crap lah. my baby cousin called me 'gor gor' ehem. do i look like a guy? then he also called me 'ah yi'. do i look like an aunty? excuse me! but nvm. baby wad. wad to do?

haha. slacked. went back home at 5 something. by that time, my house was already FLOODED LAH. wa*tagboard. haha. anyway, couldn't really say HI to everyone. they were all over the place. chat with a few of my cousins. and stoned. watched tv. no one was bothered to change the channel. our eyes was fixed on channel 62's shows. wa lao. quite funny lahx. then had buffet. ah...the food so-so lah. not really tat nice after all. but didn't eat much. my cousins all range between baby-30 something. yah. so if i talk to the baby, i would be talking baby language. if i talk to my 30 something cousin who is married already...i would be talking abt.....i duno wad. yah. so i only talked to my cousin one yr older than meeeeeeeeee. and yah 20 something yr old cousin. crap lah. she keep telling me that first 3 months IS HONEY MOON YEAR. yeh. yeh. yah rite. crap man. do i look like i m honeymooning? ok lah. except for all the fun parts.

haix. after eating, continued watching tv. watch watch watch. wa the love shows so nice. blehx. took pictures of myself*lame lah* nothing better to do. then..........slacked. my cousins and relatives went back not long ago. wa saw some stars! Ah .......so nice. got star struck! hahaa.

tomorrow i going to stay at home again. -_-" my cousins coming over. -_0" i m the oldest of all lah. they are from my mum's side. blehx. i m 'da jie' again. sheesh lah.

wishlist=real older sister. lol. pls appear in my dreams.

Today school was ok lahx. just crap. couldn't even see anything except the screen when we were in the audi. the stupid pillar lah. was blocking my whole view of the stage. just crap. after that we went to class for some lo hei. lolx. and eating. and drinking. and yam seng. lolx. then took pics.

ha. after sch. went to parkway. met up with pam, hc and cheryl. queen was with me lahx. pam and cheryl keep saying that i m more corrupted. hey. dun say lah. so sad ): haha. they changed the word to 'aggresive'. erm. ok. -_-" was i really tat kuai last time????? haha.

yeh. slacked the whole day. on the com for almost of the whole day. and spend most of my time flooding. blehx. shit.

Happy Chinese New Year.

whos that at the back? Ahhhhhhhhhhh 

ex friends gathering!  

4ever friends (: 

yeh, class pic. but not full one lahx.  

i am having a very bad headache right now. (and crap. this is my second time typing out an entry for today. The first one was not saved because my com hang.)

i feel like puking right now. damn shit. i hate this feeling.

today was a crappy day..shall blog it another time. i m damn tired. stupid headache.

my head is aching. aching from the top. ouch. it hurts. i feel faint. damn. crap. shit. ouch. blehx.

pain ok? :'( not in the mood to talk to anyone. everyone better stay away from me when i have a headache. u nv noe wad i would scream at u... :'( damn pain lahx. i cannot tahan. going to cry soon. wa ha.

today was a freaking freaking freaking duno wad day. didn't really laugh alot. just crap alot. firstly...all the lessons were freaking boring lahx. only econs lect it was kinda exciting because we played bingo and there was this stupid geog teacher who was sitting right behind who kept looking at us non-stop. yah we are all so pretty rite. hahaha. siao. anyway..yah, didn't get caught in the end lah. after lect was econs tutorial. only my gp did the presentation without the slides. some crappy thumbdrive thingy. duno wad the *** it is. anyway...when i was presenting, i could see those sleepy eyes of everyone. esp libing lahx...could see that her eyes were half closed! the topic was really very boring lahx. hahaa. miss less was super angry lah. coz no one else did the project. haix. sorry miss lee.


well, after school. slacked alot. when to the foyer and used the com. some secret society meeting there. haha. some ppl angry, some pple siao one lahx. duno lahx. crap lahx. then had lunch. then had C.I briefing. then i went town with weiqi and dawn. ah..did alot of stuff la. ok i dun wana say anymore. i feel like puking and my head is turning. kk bye. THIS SUX.

Girls UNITE!! 

class photo! i smile like siao like tat lahx.  

washing our feet! haa.  

acting cute. haha. dorothy so funny..haha.  

friends forever! haha..the biggest face is mine. then followed by alycia, dawn and then alyson. haha.  

from left : alyson (pro volleyball player), pamela (very enthu council intern), dawn (very sweet girl) and me!!! 

ha. i was too tired to blog abt the bbq yesterday. but i can only say...that it was GREAT. i did not even eat at all. but i tink i drank 4 packets of drinks if i am not wrong. lehx. was freaking thirsty lahx. haha. i had guides in the morning. After that we went to HQ because jeanette had to go for her PGA interview and the YAs had to hand in their unit helper form. haa. well, had quite alot of fun at HQ. I went into the office and started photocopying some stuff. Damn Cool lah. after tat, i helped behind the counter in the guide shop. So fun! feel like working all of a sudden. blehx.

had macs for lunch. after that went to eunos mrt at 3pm...we waited until 4 something for the rest, but they were so late that we left. pam just couldn't wait any longer. well, after tat, we reached ecp, we still had to walk a very long way before we reach the pits. quite far. haha. didn't really do much. just play with the sand and water. i didn't even eat a single thing lah. macs was too filling. i think the best part was the night time part. all the girls sat in one circle and we all started talking abt sch, class, friends and all. suddenly mcron went to join and more and more ppl joined. talked alot. alot alot. crap alot. alot alot. so fun. made many close friends. hm... alyson jie jie! haha she so tall until i feel like she is my older sis. haha. oh yah. libing jie went there late. but didn't really see her. went home quite early also. abt 10 plus. stupid phone batt died lahx. dotx.

how i wish we cld do this again. crap. my earrings are tarnishing!!!

quite tired. just came back not long from a house bbq. yawn. bye.

Stop giving me that look. I dislike it. When u are happy u smile, when you are angry u scream. WHAT IS THIS? u really scare me ok. I am not what you think. Not that big strong me. Not that brave little me. What on earth rite? Stop it? You scare me. You scare others. What we do? Run away.

Stop giving me that look. I dislike it. When u are happy u smile, when you are angry u scream. WHAT IS THIS? u really scare me ok. I am not what you think. Not that big strong me. Not that brave little me. What on earth rite? Stop it? You scare me. You scare others. What we do? Run away.

tired before we even start running. blehx -_-" 

went for cj's cross coutnry today. damn tired. my no. is 79. lolx. cool rite. my first time participating for cross country. and in competative. so many ppl loh. haha. almost died. i broke my aim loh. my aim was to not walk and continue to run no matter wad. but then was damn tired. coz if u stop after running for so long, u will lose the momentum to continue to run. crap lah. i couldn't take it when i saw the SLOPE all the way up. Wa lao so high up loh. can just faint. then the expressway was bad. i was breathing in polluted air and trying to run. walk and run. walk and run. haha siao lahx.

in the end duno came in no. wad but we weren't last lahx. i ran with alycia. some stupid guy pushed her. wa lao so kan chiong for wad? she so small size lehx. wad if she falls. mean guy. if i see u again, i will push u back. haha (since when am i so mean? XD)

quite happy lahx. libing came in 8th for the cc. and she got quite a good timing lahx. mine was like 30 over mins. wa lao can die rite. some stupid guys were standing on the road shouting," hey run run run! u reaching soon! the finishing line is just there!" but when i look rite, it was damn far lah! haha. crap. cannot estimate.

we cheered alot and took many pictures also. haha. so fun! very exciting lohx! haha. Yeh libing u did it! jia you. haha. hope next yr u can even better! 14 rocks lahx. we keep cheering like siao. haha and thanks ah weiqi..for helping me take milo. and thanks to pamela for lending me $2.40 today. crap. i have to pay $100 for the YA introductory course. so ex loh. duno if my parents will give me. should i ask if can pay thru edusave? or......should i pay by my own? duno lahx. eyes half closed already. Gp was boring today. ASAP. dotx.

CRAP LAH! i blog one whole entry then i disappeared! wad is this?

spoil my mood only lahx.

anyway. crapping alot these days. always saying 'crap' all the time. haha. even playing volleyball. haha so crappy. wa tired..dun wana type any further.

just wana wish my classmates all the best for their cc tomorrow. we can all run together but for those who want to win...they can run ahead of us and we will cheer for them! for eg.......libing lah! YEH LIBING WIN K? then we can cheer! haha. tired. sleep early guys!

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